I’m changing. I am feeling peacefully introspect, and in the process I have lost my voice and am just standing still. Being. This change is like nothing I have ever experience before – it is a spiritual growth of dimensions. I am at peace on a deeper level, feeling balanced and at ease with the universe.
So I’ve been quiet. These changes come from a place that is nonverbal. Spiritual development is beyond words, and it is taking me a long time to find the words. It is almost like learning a new language.
Old baggage, scars and damage is healed. I am finding a deeper sense of calm in myself, and in my interactions with others.
So what has brought all this about, you may ask. Well, it’s been a long time coming. It is a gradual process that began many years ago. But more recently I have made many lifestyle changes.
I’ve made some hard choices and walked away from expectations.
I have chosen a different path, choosing integrity and love, wholeness of being and peace. Some may think it is the path of least resistance, but to me it’s about living my convictions and walking the talk.
I have created a place of work that is more beneficial to me and nurturing to my soul.
There I have supportive colleagues who inspire and challenge me, and support me. The work is its own reward, which is not something I have often been able to say before. Every day is joyous and different. Every day I do something I love.
I have started learning something new.
That’s a sure way to grow and develop, and I am loving this journey. Exploring new aspects of myself is the greatest adventure I know. At the moment it is Dru Yoga, and as my learning progresses, I see yet another way that my life is filled with purpose.
Spending more time in quiet, I have been talking with my deepest self. And with my darkest self. And I understand myself better as a result. What drives me, what frightens me and what troubles me. My dreams have been lucid, and I have encountered myself in many shapes and guises. I have asked myself the questions I dared not before, and am at ease.
But my voice – it is only slowly returning. Yet I have found another voice in me strengthening and coming to the fore. This voice is wordless, but expressive nonetheless. It communicates strongly and freely with others. There is this sense of love that emanates from deep within my soul that reaches out to others and meets with them.
I am learning to develop this voice, learning to trust it and strengthen it. Compassion is a major part of this voice, and it leads me to see others in a different, kinder way. Remembering that the other is me. That we are all one.
And now I am exhausted – all these words have drained me. Tonight is yoga practice again, and I look forward to feeling the love flowing within me. Recharging. Feeling life and time merging, without words. Just being. So, until next time, Namaste.
Vild Prestegard is an anthropologist, holistic therapist, Reiki master and public speaker based in Norway. She is a regular blogger for Cycle Harmony. You’re welcome to contact her at firstname.lastname@example.org with questions and comments.