Trusting is really hard. Trusting is what you do when you don’t know what’s coming next but you go ahead anyway. It’s what you do when you can’t see where you’re stepping, but you still put your foot down. Trusting is what you do in spite of the evidence, not because of.
Like when you give your heart to someone. You’re trusting the other, be it a friend or lover, to take care of your heart, to nurture it and to cherish it like you do with theirs.
It’s a huge risk where the chances of getting let down and hurt are statistically large. But you go ahead and do it anyway because you trust them. And it feels right. And the rewards are enormous.
Being loved and cherished is the most wonderful thing that can happen to any human being. Therefore, generation after generation people are choosing to trust, choosing to love and choosing to be vulnerable.
We’re optimists and dreamers, hoping and wishing for our love to be returned. Longing for the merging of two hearts where love will blossom and create a beautiful alchemy of togetherness, loyalty, understanding and compassion.
I’m in a situation now where I’m placing my trust in the Universe, in God or a Higher Power. It feels very similar to trusting a person. I falter at times, unsure if I’m reading the signs correctly, uncertain if I’m understanding what’s happening.
Some things that are completely beyond my control have appeared in my life like a Jack-in-the-box. Turning my plans upside down, de-railed some good work and plunged me into uncertainty and fear.
What do I do now? There’s a sick feeling in my gut and I wake up feeling anxious in the night. My mind feels paralyzed and I’m suddenly three years old again, searching for safe guidance.
In this moment of darkness, I am surrounded by supportive voices. Family, friends and colleagues – amazingly they all have time for me. They all give me love and support, remind me of my strengths and that I will prevail.
In my weakness they give of themselves to replenish my courage and my resolve, so that I can arise in my strength again. Breathing deeply, I place my trust in the Universe.
My job is to conduct myself with integrity, love and compassion and then I’ll be able to recognize the signs and opportunities the Universe shows me. Remembering that my actions have impacts far beyond myself, I feel a responsibility far beyond my own little life. Once I recharge myself and can again be a magnet of positivity and compassion, I trust that I’ll attract more of the same, and therein opportunities.
Looking back at what happened it was like a meteor crashed in and knocked everything off balance. It knocked me out of the slipstream I was in, where I was making a difference, working for change and nurturing.
It left me stranded in darkness, lost in space. With the help of supportive voices, I am working my way back into this slipstream where I know I am meant to be. I know, because I trust the Universe.
Everything in the Universe works on magnetism. I’ve just got to strengthen mine, increase it, enhance it, and I’ll be on my way again.
As the moon grows and her belly stretches, I can feel the energy changing already. Celebrating the moon later today I’ll breathe and do my best to let go of the fear and paralysis. Allowing myself to trust. Allowing myself to be replenished and renewed, concentrating on getting strong and centered. Trusting in the Universe.